Monday, April 21, 2008

Suffocating

It has been two weeks and four days since our Sweet Ava passed away. Right now I am feeling like I am suffocating from the pain. I just don't know what to do. I try to busy myself but at this moment every task seems too overwhelming. I really just don't know what to do. I remember when we first got the diagnosis at 18 weeks feeling something similar. Somehow I came upon this scripture that gave me some words to what I was feeling.

My heart is in anguish within me,
And the terrors of death have fallen upon me.
Fear and trembling come upon me,
And horror has overwhelmed me.
I said, "Oh, that I had wings like a dove!
I would fly away and be at rest.
Behold, I would wander far away,
I would lodge in the wilderness.
I would hasten to my place of refuge
From the stormy wind and tempest."
Psalm 55:4-8

2 comments:

Kipplyn said...

Hi friend, I hope you will keep writing. Sometime sharing your story helps to get it out. I am sorry for what you are going through. Love you!

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